I didn't bother to get dressed today, I was too busy crying.

I haven't been able to figure out why I'm so upset after last night. I'm incredibly exhausted, depressed, and longing to see Eric. I was really starting to develop feelings for that boy, and I feel like someone just reached into my chest and grabbed my heart as hard as they could and made it explode, splattering blood everywhere.

I don't blame Eric for being so mortified of my quick movements. Not to mention, Travis and I breaking up is starting to take a toll on me. I'm attempting to keep my head up, but it's being a kick in the ass to me. I want nothing more than for Eric to come over tonight and comfort me, to eat some good food, and to just sleep away the darkness.