I can't hear it over the fan. The rain that is.
I'm listening to Christina Perri's "Jar of Hearts," and reminiscing. though I've seemed to move on with Derek, it still doesn't stop the hurt.

"I learned to live half a life,
And now you want me one more time..."

I know we'll never be together again, and I'm okay with that.

"And who do you think you are?
Running around leaving scars..."

But it doesn't make the hurt any less. I never even hurt this bad when Travis and I split.... Don't get me wrong, Derek makes me incredibly happy... but you've become the lowest of the low... on my list, at least. I know it's best for us to not talk, to not be friends, but it again doesn't make the hurt any less.