I have so much on my mind I feel like it's kinda spinning out of control. I haven't felt this way in a while, but it's getting fairly frustrating. A lot of it has to do with mine and Derek's 'relationship.' Now, I put that in quotes because I still don't know where we stand, I'm assuming we're together, because I think we are, but a part of me doesn't want to be. I'm still influenced on that decision by school and the like, and it's confusing. That's most of what's weighing on my mind.
On top of that there's my weight, it's been floating around my mind lately. I actually the other day chose my meal plan, and I went with the All Debit meal plan, mostly because you have the option to buy more 'grocery' like foods, and since I normally eat 3 meals per day, it makes it a little more convenient to have a bigger plan. And a bigger plan to me means more salads :P
I just wish my eating habits at home were a little bit better. With the way food has been, it's rough. I've been trying to eat as much as possible of things like the watermelon or the cantaloupe we've been getting. But it all only lasts so long. But it's progress, since we haven't had ANY food in the house recently. I was particularly stoked the other day when I was able to go out and get groceries after working for April's parents. It felt good to work again, I did miss it, I particularly miss having structure in my life. But what I'm TOTALLY stoked about is as of next weekend, Roseland Water Park is going to be my LIFE. Which means I'll be out of the house more, and doing more, and sitting in the sun having fun, and and and yeah. I'm so, so excited. I'll also be eating less. That's a big plus. Sigh.
I gotta do somethin'.
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