I'm really distraught tonight.
Mine and Trav's two year anniversary is Sunday. Tomorrow we're going out to spend time together, going out to Buffalo to eat, maybe Dave and Buster's, and to hit up a couple of haunted houses. But I've been thinking tonight about how I had lost my ring that said "I Love Travis." On the inside it had the date we got together, and I lost it.

I got angry one day, took it off, and threw it in Travis's room. And I lost it. I feel like it was a metaphor for our relationship. Things went very much so downhill from there, up until recently. Since I've realized that our relationship is coming to such a fantastic milestone, I unconditionally want things to get better. In each of my relationships, we only made it slightly past our two year. We fell apart first by the 10th month. I'm not so sure that happened, we fell apart... last November. But I try incredibly hard not to think about that, though it does happen almost each and every day. I want to move beyond that with Travis. He's been so fantastic and so lovey lately, and it's made me re-realize how madly in love I am with him.

Tomorrow is truly going to be fantastic. I can feel it.