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so, there's been a lot on my mind lately. Something's been on my mind that I just don't know how to deal with... money. My mom and I were just talking about the idea that some how her family has the money to travel all the time to come back 'home' and such. I understand some of my family members may make good money, but it makes me upset that I worry about money so often. I'm not even 21, nor am I out on my own, but it makes a big impact on my life. I'm worried about moving out, I need money for that, I'm worried about going back to college, I need money for that. And on top of that, I've been told that there may be a chance that I can't afford to go to RIT.

Currently, all of this shouldn't be the biggest thing on my mind. I should be focusing on getting better so I can GO to my job. I got shit this morning for calling in, but god I feel awful. I'm truly liking working at Naartjie Kids, and it makes for a great transitional job - when I'm up to par. When I feel like death, it's dreadful because it's rather slow. I wish I could go back to just being a cashier. But, it all seems okay. I'm thankful for my job because I want to start saving money because Sarah and I have been considering moving in together. :) It excites me because we want to move to the city to be closer to where we normally spend a lot of time any way. I think it'd be cool to get out of this place and go somewhere bigger and better. It seems inspiring, like I would learn a little more, especially about myself. I'm just nervous about talking to my mom about it. I don't want her to over react, especially because I know I'll need her support.

But, for now I'm trying not to think about much of anything. I feel HORRENDOUS and just want to sleep. lol