I'm dizzy with confusion about all that's going on these days. Travis and I keep fighting. And fighting. And fighting. And fighting. And I just don't know if I can take it any more. But I also don't want to deal with the humiliation and embarrassment that come from breaking up with Travis. The way his friends banished me and made me feel like I wasn't a part of the circle any more, no one acknowledged me, and it made me feel horrible. I'm the outcast, even when I'm there with everyone. All I've ever wanted was to fit in and find my place with Travis and his friends. And god knows I do not need all of this pain. I hurt bad enough going through my depression and having to try and "fix" myself. Going to therapy, working with medications, being on temporary assistance which isn't doing enough for me to help me. My mom paying all of my bills, her kicking Daniel out... jesus christ I don't need this. But I just don't know what to do.